Top 200 YA Novels of 2010

USA Today just published their list of the top 100 bestsellers of 2010Publishers Weekly  and other places will soon follow. But sales don’t always capture the full picture. Some books may be purchased once and read once. Others are passed around until they’re ragged. Furthermore, many books sell well over a number of years but don’t get the volume in any week or year to put them on the list. That’s why I like to also look at circulation numbers. And I just happen to have the YA circulation numbers for the Logan, Utah library (thank you Super Librarian Melanie), which serves the 115,000 folks of Cache County, 50,000 of which are in Logan itself. Not a bad population size to get an idea of what’s being read.

Of course, I know each area in the country will have a slightly (or hugely) different list, which makes sense because tastes differ from region to region (for example, I’m betting Chris Heimerdinger isn’t really big in, say, Alabama), but also because collections differ as well. For example, I was surprised Dan Wells didn’t show up with I Am Not A Serial Killer, but the Logan library doesn’t even have that book. So this method does have limitations. It would be nice to get a national breakdown. But until someone is able to cobble that together, this gives a good picture of what’s being read in this part of the world. Regardless of where you live, this should constitute a list of books that ought to be great reads for teens and adults.

In 2010, 3,574 YA titles were checked out a total of 33,156 times (by adults and youth–whoever has a card). Books in the collection but not checked out didn’t make the list, of course. Here are the top 200 books. The Total column shows how many times the book was checked out. % shows what percent of the total circulation that represents. Rank is rank. I was very happy to see quite a few Utah authors (or former Utahans) on this list. Congrats to the following (# titles in top 200):

  • Shannon Hale (6)
  • Jessica Day George (6)
  • Stephenie Meyer (5)
  • Brandon Sanderson (3)
  • Mette Ivie Harrison (3)
  • Aprilynne Pike (2)
  • Lisa Mangum (2)
  • Chris Heimerdinger (2)
  • Jack Weyland (1)
  • James Dashner (1)

BTW, here are the companion lists: Top 200 YA Authors of 2010 (showing total volume, not by book, but by author) and Top 200 YA Authors of 2010, Part 2 (showing the authors with the most readers per book)

The List

EDIT: 1/13/2011 11:42 AM. I just found out the first set of data I posted included more than checkouts: things like renewals, searches, bills, etc. So the numbers were wacked. This changed both the rankings and the numbers of books included by some of the authors. What you see now are the correct numbers for checkouts.

EDIT: 1/14/2011 3:31 PM. Okay, one more edit. Silly us–we left off books shelved in the “New Book” category. These numbers are checked, double-checked, and rock solid.

Title Total % Rank
The hunger games / Suzanne Collins 374 1.13% 1
Catching fire / Suzanne Collins 273 0.82% 2
Mockingjay / Suzanne Collins 241 0.73% 3
The lightning thief / Rick Riordan 197 0.59% 4
The last Olympian / Rick Riordan 194 0.59% 5
The short second life of Bree Tanner : an Eclipse novella / Stephenie Meyer 181 0.55% 6
Harry Potter and the deathly hallows / J. K. Rowling  160 0.48% 7
Forest born / Shannon Hale 155 0.47% 8
The red pyramid / Rick Riordan 143 0.43% 9
The sea of monsters / Rick Riordan 139 0.42% 10
Princess of glass / by Jessica Day George 113 0.34% 11
The Titan’s curse / Rick Riordan 110 0.33% 12
City of bones / Cassandra Clare 109 0.33% 13
The book thief / by Markus Zusak 108 0.33% 14
Brisingr / Christopher Paolini 101 0.30% 15
The battle of the Labyrinth / Rick Riordan 99 0.30% 16
Book of a thousand days / by Shannon Hale 96 0.29% 17
New moon / Stephenie Meyer 94 0.28% 18
Harry Potter and the half-blood prince / by J. K. Rowling 87 0.26% 19
Breaking dawn / Stephenie Meyer 87 0.26% 20
Tempted : a house of night novel / P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast 86 0.26% 21
Eclipse / by Stephenie Meyer 86 0.26% 22
Twilight / by Stephenie Meyer 81 0.24% 23
Night world / L. J. Smith 81 0.24% 24
River secrets / by Shannon Hale 79 0.24% 25
City of ashes / Cassandra Clare 79 0.24% 26
City of Glass / Cassandra Clare 78 0.24% 27
Princess Academy / Shannon Hale 76 0.23% 28
Uglies / Scott Westerfeld 69 0.21% 29
Chosen : a house of night novel / P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast 69 0.21% 30
Princess of the Midnight Ball / by Jessica Day George 68 0.21% 31
The hourglass door : a novel / by Lisa Mangum 65 0.20% 32
Pretties / Scott Westerfeld 63 0.19% 33
Shiver / Maggie Stiefvater 62 0.19% 34
The lost hero / Rick Riordan 62 0.19% 35
Witch & wizard / James Patterson and Gabrielle Charbonnet 61 0.18% 36
The dark Divine / Bree Despain 61 0.18% 37
Untamed : a house of night novel / P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast 59 0.18% 38
The golden spiral / Lisa Mangum 59 0.18% 39
Enna burning / Shannon Hale 59 0.18% 40
Fire / Kristin Cashore 58 0.17% 41
Erak’s ransom / John Flanagan 58 0.17% 42
Wings / Aprilynne Pike 57 0.17% 43
Spirit bound / Richelle Mead 57 0.17% 44
The siege of Macindaw / John Flanagan 57 0.17% 45
Blood promise : a Vampire Academy novel / Richelle Mead 57 0.17% 46
Syren / Angie Sage 56 0.17% 47
Betrayed : a house of night novel / P. C. Cast and Kristin Cast 56 0.17% 48
Specials / Scott Westerfield 54 0.16% 49
The golden compass / by Philip Pullman  54 0.16% 50
The awakening / Kelley Armstrong 54 0.16% 51
Marked : a house of night novel/ P. C. Cast and Kristin Cast 53 0.16% 52
Magyk / Angie Sage  53 0.16% 53
Fang : a Maximum Ride novel / James Patterson 53 0.16% 54
The burning bridge / John Flanagan 53 0.16% 55
The ruins of Gorlan / John Flanagan 52 0.16% 56
The goose girl / Shannon Hale 52 0.16% 57
The alchemyst : the secrets of the immortal Nicholas Flamel / Michael Scott 52 0.16% 58
The maze runner / James Dashner 51 0.15% 59
Inkdeath / Cornelia Funke  51 0.15% 60
Hush, hush / Becca Fitzpatrick 50 0.15% 61
The Looking Glass Wars / by Frank Beddor 49 0.15% 62
Burned : a house of night novel / P. C. Cast and Kristin Cast 49 0.15% 63
What I saw and how I lied / Judy Blundell 48 0.14% 64
Eragon / Christopher Paolini 48 0.14% 65
The merchant of death / by D.J. MacHale 47 0.14% 66
Graceling / Kristin Cashore 47 0.14% 67
The necromancer / Michael Scott 46 0.14% 68
Beauty sleep / Cameron Dokey 46 0.14% 69
Artemis Fowl / Eoin Colfer 46 0.14% 70
A great and terrible beauty / Libba Bray 45 0.14% 71
The demigod files / Rick Riordan  45 0.14% 72
The Van Alen legacy : a Blue Bloods novel / Melissa de la Cruz 44 0.13% 73
Spells / Aprilynne Pike 44 0.13% 74
The sorcerer of the north / John Flanagan 44 0.13% 75
The battle for Skandia / John Flanagan 44 0.13% 76
Artemis Fowl. The Atlantis complex / Eoin Colfer  44 0.13% 77
Theodore Boone : kid lawyer / John Grisham  43 0.13% 78
Evermore / Alyson Noèel 43 0.13% 79
Clockwork angel / Cassandra Clare 43 0.13% 80
Physik / Angie Sage  42 0.13% 81
Eldest / by Christopher Paolini 42 0.13% 82
Captivate / Carrie Jones 42 0.13% 83
Twice upon a Marigold / Jean Ferris 41 0.12% 84
The Shadow Project / by Herbie Brennan 41 0.12% 85
The reckoning / Kelley Armstrong 41 0.12% 86
The kings of Clonmel / John Flanagan 41 0.12% 87
Gone / by Lisa McMann 41 0.12% 88
Fallen / Lauren Kate 41 0.12% 89
Don’t judge a girl by her cover / Ally Carter 41 0.12% 90
Tennis shoes among the Nephites / Chris Heimerdinger 40 0.12% 91
The princess and the hound / Mette Ivie Harrison 40 0.12% 92
Heist society / Ally Carter 40 0.12% 93
Golden / Cameron Dokey 40 0.12% 94
Dragon spear / by Jessica Day George 40 0.12% 95
Dragon flight / Jessica Day George 40 0.12% 96
Queste / Angie Sage  39 0.12% 97
Need / Carrie Jones 39 0.12% 98
Messenger / Lois Lowry 39 0.12% 99
Bloodhound / Tamora Pierce 39 0.12% 100
Wild orchid : a retelling of “The ballad of Mulan” / by Cameron Dokey 38 0.11% 101
The chronicles of Vladimir Tod : eleventh grade burns / Heather Brewer 38 0.11% 102
Terrier / Tamora Pierce 38 0.11% 103
Revenge of the witch / Joseph Delaney 38 0.11% 104
Inkheart / Cornelia Funk 38 0.11% 105
Howl’s moving castle / Diana Wynne Jones 38 0.11% 106
The diamond secret / by Suzanne Weyn 38 0.11% 107
Darklight : a novel / Lesley Livingston 38 0.11% 108
Pretty little liars / Sara Shepard 37 0.11% 109
Just Ella / Margaret Peterson Haddix 37 0.11% 110
The icebound land  / John Flanagan 37 0.11% 111
Harry Potter and the goblet of fire / by J.K. Rowling 37 0.11% 112
Dreamhunter / Elizabeth Knox 37 0.11% 113
Destiny’s path / Frewin Jones 37 0.11% 114
Crocodile tears / Anthony Horowitz 37 0.11% 115
The body finder / by Kimberly Derting 37 0.11% 116
Violet eyes : a retelling of “The princess and the pea” / Debbie Viguie 36 0.11% 117
They never came back / Caroline B. Cooney 36 0.11% 118
The summoning / Kelley Armstrong 36 0.11% 119
The soldiers of Halla / D.J. MacHale 36 0.11% 120
Shadowland / Alyson Noèel 36 0.11% 121
The princess and the snowbird / Mette Ivie Harrison 36 0.11% 122
The magician / Michael Scott 36 0.11% 123
The luxe / Anna Godbersen 36 0.11% 124
Gathering blue / Lois Lowry 36 0.11% 125
Blue moon : the Immortals / Alyson Noèel 36 0.11% 126
Sun and moon, ice and snow / Jessica Day George 35 0.11% 127
The princess and the bear / Mette Ivie Harrison 35 0.11% 128
Once upon a Marigold / Jean Ferris 35 0.11% 129
The lost city of Faar / D.J. MacHale 35 0.11% 130
Lord Sunday / Garth Nix 35 0.11% 131
Linger / Maggie Stiefvater 35 0.11% 132
The Forest of Hands and Teeth / Carrie Ryan 35 0.11% 133
Extras / Scott Westerfeld 35 0.11% 134
Betraying season / Marissa Doyle 35 0.11% 135
Thirteen reasons why : a novel / by Jay Asher 34 0.10% 136
Squire / by Tamora Pierce 34 0.10% 137
Midnight pearls : a retelling of  “The little mermaid” / Debbie Viguie 34 0.10% 138
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix / by J.K. Rowling 34 0.10% 139
Ever / Gail Carson Levine 34 0.10% 140
The dead-tossed waves / Carrie Ryan 34 0.10% 141
Clash of the demons / by Joseph Delaney 34 0.10% 142
Cameron Meets Madison./ Jack Weyland 34 0.10% 143
Belle : a retelling of “Beauty and the beast” / by Cameron Dokey 34 0.10% 144
Before midnight : a retelling of “Cinderella” / by Cameron Dokey 34 0.10% 145
Beastly / Alex Flinn 34 0.10% 146
Artemis Fowl : the Arctic incident / Eoin Colfer 34 0.10% 147
The Amaranth enchantment / Julie Berry 34 0.10% 148
Alcatraz versus the Knights of Crystallia / by Brandon Sanderson 34 0.10% 149
Alanna the first adventure / by Tamora Pierce 34 0.10% 150
Splendor : a Luxe novel / Anna Godbersen 33 0.10% 151
Shadow kiss : a Vampire Academy novel/ by Richelle Mead 33 0.10% 152
Seeing Redd / by Frank Beddor 33 0.10% 153
Claim to fame / Margaret Peterson Haddix 33 0.10% 154
Beautiful creatures / by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl 33 0.10% 155
White cat / Holly Black 32 0.10% 156
The sweet far thing / Libba Bray 32 0.10% 157
Radiant shadows / Melissa Marr 32 0.10% 158
Incarceron / by Catherine Fisher 32 0.10% 159
Gadiantons and the silver sword / by Chris Heimerdinger 32 0.10% 160
Dragon slippers / Jessica Day George 32 0.10% 161
A coven of witches / by Joseph Delaney  32 0.10% 162
Being Nikki : an airhead novel / Meg Cabot 32 0.10% 163
Artemis Fowl. The time paradox / Eoin Colfer 32 0.10% 164
The woman who rides like a man / by Tamora Pierce 31 0.09% 165
Winter’s child / Cameron Dokey 31 0.09% 166
The sorceress / Michael Scott 31 0.09% 167
Rules of attraction / Simone Elkeles 31 0.09% 168
Radiant darkness / Emily Whitman 31 0.09% 169
Once a witch / by Carolyn MacCullough 31 0.09% 170
A kiss in time / Alex Flinn 31 0.09% 171
Heroes of the valley / Jonathan Stroud 31 0.09% 172
First test / Tamora Pierce 31 0.09% 173
The crimson thread : a retelling of “Rumpelstiltskin” / by Suzanne Weyn 31 0.09% 174
Blue bloods / Melissa de la Cruz 31 0.09% 175
Before i fall / Lauren Oliver 31 0.09% 176
Alcatraz versus the Scrivener’s Bones / by Brandon Sanderson 31 0.09% 177
The warrior heir / Cinda Williams Chima 30 0.09% 178
Vampire rising / Jason Henderson 30 0.09% 179
Rebel angels / Libba Bray 30 0.09% 180
Princess Ben / Catherine Murdock 30 0.09% 181
The never war / D.J. MacHale 30 0.09% 182
Max : a Maximum Ride novel / James Patterson 30 0.09% 183
In the hand of the goddess / by Tamora Pierce 30 0.09% 184
Flyte / Angie Sage 30 0.09% 185
Faerie wars / by Herbie Brennan 30 0.09% 186
Dreamquake : book two of the Dreamhunter duet / Elizabeth Knox 30 0.09% 187
Cross my heart and hope to spy / Ally Carter 30 0.09% 188
Cirque du freak : a living nightmare / by Darren Shan 30 0.09% 189
Birthmarked / Caragh M. O’Brien 30 0.09% 190
Artemis Fowl : the eternity code / Eoin Colfer 30 0.09% 191
Alcatraz  versus the evil Librarians / by Brandon Sanderson 30 0.09% 192
Wicked lovely / Melissa Marr 29 0.09% 193
Water song : a retelling of “The frog prince” / by Suzanne Weyn 29 0.09% 194
Wake / Lisa McMann 29 0.09% 195
Violet wings / Victoria Hanley 29 0.09% 196
Strange angels / Lili St. Crow 29 0.09% 197
Princess for hire / Lindsey Leavitt 29 0.09% 198
Maximum Ride : the final warning  / James Patterson 29 0.09% 199
Maximum Ride : school’s out– forever / by James Patterson 29 0.09% 200
Lament : the faerie queen’s deception / Maggie Stiefvater 29 0.09% 201
Lady knight / Tamora Pierce 29 0.09% 202
House of many ways / Diana Wynne Jones 29 0.09% 203
Going bovine / Libba Bray 29 0.09% 204
The enchanted quest / Frewin Jones 29 0.09% 205
The dragon heir  / Cinda Williams Chima 29 0.09% 206
Black water / D.J. MacHale 29 0.09% 207

Black Hawk Down, Pete Blaber, Not Waving But Drowning

A Ferocious Battle

 I just finished reading Black Hawk Down by Mark Bowden. It is the most gripping account of any battle I have ever read.

In 1992 a Somali warlord attacked and killed U.N. peacekeeping forces. As a result, the US put a $25,000 bounty on his head and attempted to arrest and try him for war crimes. On October 3, 1993, by the order of President Bill Clinton, a force of United States Army Rangers and Delta Force operators, the Army’s most elite warriors, set out to capture several lieutenants of the warlord’s militia in an area of the Somali capital city of Mogadishu that was controlled by the warlord.

The force of about a hundred U.S. soldiers helicoptered in during broad daylight. They roped down to the streets surrounding the target building. It was supposed to take them no more than an hour. They would bag the warlord’s lieutenants, put them on a convoy of Army trucks that had barreled into the city and were waiting right around the corner, and get out.

But the citizenry, loyal to the warlord, weren’t going to take it lying down. They began to swarm with guns and rocket propelled grenades. They attacked, almost heedless of the danger. One Somali with an AK-47 rode a cow out in a strange charge, a number of other Somali’s taking cover behind (yeah, he and the cow died). But the Americans were overconfident of their Black Hawk helicopters. They didn’t think the types of weapons the Somalis had could bring them down.

One chopper was hit and crashed. Then another. A third and then a fourth were damaged and barely made it back to safety before they crash landed. As for the Rangers and D-boys, they were in for the fight of their life.

The book tells the story of their courage, but it also brings in the point of view of a number of actual Somalis who fought and were injured. In the process, we get a view of the battle that is both thrilling and poignant.

Bowden did an excellent job researching and writing this. I could not put it down. It does include some military grade profanity, but it wasn’t there to titillate or shock. I’ve talked to those who saw the movie based on this book, and I could tell the book is, per usual, better than the movie. If you’re at all interested in the military and the military operations we conduct overseas, let me recommend that you read this book. 

Delta Force Commander Shares Insights

Delta Force is the world’s most elite counterterrorist fighting force. Pete Blaber was a Delta Force operator that worked his way up to become a Delta Force commander and took part in some of the most dangerous, controversial, and significant military and political events of our time.

During his time in uniform, he learned a number of lessons about life, about how we make decisions and act on them. In The Mission, The Men, and Me, Blaber writes about a number of the missions he conducted and the lessons he learned from them.

The missions were conducted in Montana, Iraq, Bosnia, and Afghanistan. One featured a commander stupidly ordering Blaber to take his men into sure destruction. Another featured some of the first plans to capture Osama Bin Laden, before 9/11. Another included a man in a gorilla suit.

The lessons Blaber draws from these experiences are fascinating and apply to more than military operations. For example, the lesson he drew from the operation featuring the gorilla suit is something I use every day with my writing. Anyone who leads or manages or works in groups will find other critical lessons. This was another book I couldn’t put down. Anyone interested in special forces will love this book.

Not Waving But Drowning

“Not Waving but Drowning” is a poem by female British poet Stevie Smith. It was published in 1957 as part of a collection with the same title. The work is her most famous poem and describes a man whose distressed thrashing in the sea causes onlookers to believe that he is waving to them, not drowning

I hadn’t thought about this poem since I was a student at BYU. Then a local poet read it as part of his remarks at a conference I recently attended. The image and message lingered with me for hours. I thought about it off and on over the following weeks. This is, for me, an incredibly powerful poem. It needs to be read aloud, I think, to be appreciated. Not in some silly way, but with the appropriate feeling. I’m going to record a reading for my website, but you can read it aloud for yourself. Or have someone else do it for you. Then read it again.

Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he’s dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

How often does this happen? Those onlookers, caring only superficially, thinking it was too cold, thinking he was funning. But it wasn’t too cold. And his heart didn’t give out. He was struggling for his life, and they were too preoccupied to see it.

Too preoccupied to really see. 

I wonder. Is there someone around me, that if I just looked, just paused from my rush, I’d see they were much too far out, and not waving, but drowning.

The Three Rules of Great Antagonists?

Jennifer Crusie is a long-time pro writer. In Filled with Glee: The Unauthorized Glee Companion by Leah Wilson, Crusie had this to say about antagonists in her essay “You Think That’s Hard? Try Being an Antagonist, That’s Hard”: Why Sue Sylvester is Essential to Glee” 

“Sue is riveting, not only because she’s a fascinating character in her own right, but also because she embodies the Three Rules of Great Antagonists: (1) She is much stronger than the protagonist she sets out to destroy, (2) She will stop at nothing to achieve her goal, and (3) despite all that strength and implacability, she’s a vulnerable human being, not a cartoon.” (130)

You know what I think of rules and of form outside the context of function. So here are my questions to you writers who follow my blog and have been following the posts on suspense:

  1. What function or effect do these qualities have on the reader or on story elements that impact the reader?
  2. Do all great antagonists exhibit these three qualities?
  3. If not, are any of these critical for antagonists?
  4. What’s your conclusion about these three rules?

I’m interested to see what you come up with. And don’t be afraid to post your ideas. I really want to hear your take. You might want to read her whole essay.

Ninja Master Prep, Bountiful Baskets, and Feeling Good

Kung Fu Your Food

It sounds like something off of a bad infomercial—black-clad ninjas, blenders, and, if you order now, a zirconium ruby that can withstand the pressure of a full elephant’s weight! But we didn’t get the Ninja Master Prep Professional—a six-cup pitcher and three two-cup prep bowls–from an infomercial. Santa’s up to his old tricks again. The dirty dog one-upped me and gave it to my wife for Christmas.

Most blenders and food-processors use a single blade at the bottom of the container. When you make thicker smoothies, this means you have to stir and poke the chunks to the bottom. When you chop vegetables, it means that sometimes the stuff on the bottom turns to soup while larger chunks whirl around on top. And when it’s time to serve or remove the contents, you have to deal with the blades.

But the Ninja Master Prep turns all that on its head. It uses multiple blades–one each at the bottom, middle, and top. You hold the motor in your hand. This configuration processes the food quickly and evenly. For example, we had 48 ounces of thick, perfectly-blended smoothies made from frozen strawberries in thirty seconds. And serving was a breeze because we simply set the motor aside, pulled the blade column out, and were left with a normal pitcher.   

If you’re looking for a new blender or food processor, give the Ninja Master Prep Professional a try. You can find it at Sam’s Club, Target, Kohl’s, and many places online, including Amazon.com.

Now, Grasshopper. You must learn respect–Hee-yah!

Easy Eating

One of the best changes we can make in our diets is to include more fruits and vegetables. I’ve found one of the easiest ways to do this is to order a weekly boxful from Bountiful Baskets (BountifulBaskets.org), a co-op which has hundreds of pickup locations in ten western states.

The produce is cheap. And because you don’t choose what you’re going to get, you’re introduced to vegetables and fruits you might not otherwise try. Some might think that leads to eating less produce, but we’ve found it’s actually the reverse.

One of the biggest headaches of cooking is planning the meals. In fact, I think having a menu is most of the battle. Bountiful Baskets eliminates a good portion of that planning and required shopping. Instead of trying to figure out what to cook, we know what we have to cook. It’s right there in the basket. All we need to do is build a number of the week’s meals around the produce. A few clicks on allrecipes.com and we’re ready to go.

If you want to eat a more healthy and delicious diet, give Bountiful Baskets a go.  

Be Happy

It’s the holiday season and a joyous time for many people. But it’s also the worst time of year for others. We recently had another suicide in our little county. Some people might prefer we sweep such things under the rug. But it breaks my heart. Especially since such tragedy is avoidable. And I’m not talking about removing the problem with medication, although sometimes people do need to treat chemical imbalances. For many, much, if not all, of their depression is fueled by specific types of thoughts.

These thoughts are not wacky, crazy things. In fact, they may seem innocuous or normal to some. But they are deadly all the same. Identifying and shining the truth on these thoughts takes some work, but the liberation is worth every ounce of effort.

It’s unrealistic to expect to be full of joy every minute of our lives. But it’s also not necessary, nor is it normal, to live a life dominated by feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, pain, and self-loathing. If you or someone you know seems to feel these things on a regular basis, please, get a copy of Feeling Good by David Burns. Just read the first hundred pages and perform the techniques found there. And if you need some help being consistent, find a counselor to help you.

Along with the jolts and pains, life provides an abundance of joys. Don’t let yourself, or those close to you, miss them.